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No, I Won’t Sit Pretty Just Because You Said So!!!!

  If I'm Comfortable, Why Aren't You? From the time a woman is born, she’s told how to walk, how to talk, how to sit, smile, eat, behave, and even breathe. Society whispers rules into her ears: be polite, be gentle, don’t talk too much, don’t talk to too many men, sit properly, dress “modestly,” smile but not too much, be pretty but not “easy.” Why does the world get so uncomfortable when a woman is comfortable in her own skin? If she chooses to wear sleeveless, she’s judged. If her body is visible, people assume she’s asking for attention. If she talks to men freely, she’s labelled. If she wears makeup, she’s called “fake.” If she doesn’t, she’s deemed “unattractive.” When she’s slim, she’s told to “put on some weight,” and when she’s curvy, she’s told to “lose some.” It never ends. Let me say this clearly, being comfortable in your body, your choices, your clothes, your weight, and your way of speaking or not speaking is your right. You don’t need to shrink for anyone’s c...
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Chaudhvin Ka Chaand Ho (II)

Ever since I asked him to sing, he would always sing this particular one, ' Chaudhvin Ka Chaand' . I thought it was for his beloved. But no, now, when I look back, I know it was for me. The lady born on a full moon. I still remember his last bedridden days, how he used to ask me to sing, but I was so conscious about my voice that I wouldn’t. So he would sing for me, the same song, again and again. The biggest heartbreak of my life was seeing my first love bedridden, with a feeding tube through his mouth, adult diapers, and no control over his body. My man... it was hard. Later, we appointed a home nurse because Ammuma couldn’t handle him alone anymore. Parkinson’s made him hard to handle, it’s a bloody, shitty disease. Even the nurse couldn’t handle it and yes she left. One weekend after school, Ammuma and I decided to give him a proper makeover. She bathed him. But before that, I shaved his beard....carefully. I had done it before, so I was a bit confident. Earlier, when ...

Where Are My Chocolates? (I)

When Memory Faded, Love Stayed My childhood was filled with his laughter, his stories, and the quiet strength that surrounded him. My appupa wasn’t just a part of our home. He was the soul of it. He was my best friend. The man I adored more than anyone in this world. After school, I would run back home with little chocolates tucked safely in my uniform's pocket, saved from birthday treats. Sometimes, I would buy an extra one just so he and I could have one each. That was our little ritual. A moment that belonged only to us. One August, just as Onam was nearing, something happened that quietly broke my heart. I woke up and saw him trying to talk to my ammuma . He was asking her something, but she couldn’t understand what he was saying. He got frustrated. He called my uncle and struggled to speak. No voice came out. And then, he cried. Not like an old man, but like a little boy who suddenly felt lost in his own house. That day, something inside him shifted. He began to walk differen...

Why Is February Shorter Than Every Other Month?

Why didn’t any of the scientists think against the superstition of Numa Pompilius?   It’s something I keep wondering about after I googled, like why does February have 28 or 29 days?  Now here is what I found. The word 'February' comes from the Latin word Februarius, which means 'of Februa.' Februa was a Roman festival of purification that took place around the full moon in February. Before the Julian calendar and before the Gregorian calendar, the Romans had a completely different mess on their hands. Their calendar had only ten months, with six months of 30 days and four of 31, making a grand total of 304 days. But the Romans had a deep-rooted fear of even numbers, considering them unlucky. Then came Numa Pompilius, Rome’s second king, ready to fix this chaos without stepping on any superstitions. So what did he do? He cut all 30-day months down to 29, leaving 56 extra days. To balance things out, he created January and February, bringing the count to twe...

Potassium

In a morning haze, my mind wandered   As a friend spoke of potassium,   Soft metal, easily cut,   Quick to react when exposed.   But my thoughts drifted elsewhere,   To someone close,   Soft inside, calm on the surface,   Unmoved by others' words.   Yet when I speak, he stirs,   My words like a knife,   Sometimes making him upset,   Or setting him off in defense.   And sometimes I add to his tension,   Without meaning to.   I wonder now,   Am I the knife, or am I the oxygen?   Our bond is deep,   But I fear his nature might wear down,   Still, I hope to keep him whole,   Away from breaking apart.  

People Say

People say, “Love yourself” or “Self-love is more important,” but what does that even mean? Where do you even begin? One of my friends  (my closest friend and my most favourite one actually) once gave me some advice: when people comment on you, just ignore it. Yeah, that’s what most people say, right? But here’s a twist. If you're the kind of person who takes everything to heart, don’t just brush it off. Instead, listen. Give it a little thought. If your gut tells you there’s truth in it, make small changes, adjust for the better. But if you know deep down it’s not true, then prove them wrong. I’ve been thinking about this a lot, and I realised that the first step for me in self-love, understanding what really matters. These days, everyone’s talking about skincare routines and pampering themselves in the name of self-love. But honestly? I think it goes way deeper than that. It’s your mental health that needs to come first. If your mind isn’t in a good place, no amount of skincare o...

Zenobi Confesses?

Welcome to Zenobi Confess,  why that name, you ask?  Well, let me tell you a little story. Zenobia, the Rebel Queen of Palmyra, took on the Roman Empire, conquered Egypt, and almost built an empire to rival Rome itself. Her strength and fearlessness inspired me, though I’m not here to conquer nations. Instead, I’d love to conquer hearts. This blog is where I confess whatever comes to my mind, raw and real. Sometimes I feel like no one around me truly understands me, am I wrong? Nah, baby, it’s just the world that gets it twisted sometimes. I can be a dramatic queen, and I own it. I live for drama, but this space is where I spill my truths, share my emotions, and tell my story, unfiltered. There’s a lot more I want to write, but let's pause here for now. Stick around, because I'm not just here to be an emotional whirlwind, but to drop some knowledge, too!